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I have recently changed my profile to Marketing Communications since June 12. Although it was my dream job and I was extremely happy when I heard it was offered to me, of late I dont feel the same.
I still remember the day I heard about what was to be offered to me through a colleague, I actually jumped on my toes. Also when I had got a call from the Head asking for a meeting, the interview slot, the confirmation call - I remember it all so well. I felt like I just conquered the world. I also distinctively remember discussing my entire growth plan with my husband and I even patted myself for being pretty good on my track to progress.
However as the human nature is insatiable, once this wish was fulfilled, another wish was my mind in a jiffy.
I have somehow always planned ahead in life. I visualise how I want my life to go, what brings me joy, how can I plan my work and then the most important which are the weekend attached holidays which I can combine and go for yet another fantastic destination. Somehow so far I have been successful in striking a good balance between work and life. People who know me well have seen me happy, cheerful, bubbly kinds, of course bearing some days when am in terrible mood and hence quiet.
However so far I somehow have stopped feeling good about myself. When am trying and analysing the situation, strangely I dont know the answer. I have been doing well in terms of my personal and professional journey. Infact on professional front, to my surprise I was also adjudged Best Marketer for Q3. Still at that very moment, I was extremely extremely happy but soon the thrill died down.
Somehow after deep thought I realised that the new wishes that I had set for were causing the trouble. Things were not going the way they should have as per my plan. But another reason was also I was letting Others (People who even didnt matter to me) define my happiness.
I poured my heart out to my husband, my close friends, my well-wishers and surprisingly all advised me the same thing, "Things dont always go as per your plan, learn to have patience. Think positive, Have faith, Believe in yourself."
Again being the individual I am, I cheer up for the moment but again the dark clouds of negative thoughts encircled and endangered my happiness.
Its been quite a long time now that am feeling lost and helpless and a question often comes to my mind. Why am I planning for every small achievement / phase of my life. Why am I not like others who kind of live for the day, enjoy every moment and face another day as it comes?
Am not illogical to not understand, today's life is full of stress and whether you will exist or not tomorrow is also not guaranteed so live life kingsize. However even after I know this why am I being kiddish and sticking to that one wish which has taken command on my life and toll on my happiness.
However amongst all this mental chatter, as I have been always saying am a special child of God. He keeps sending some signals and his angels in the forms of my family members, close friends and well wishers. They keep cheering me, joking and trying their best to pull me out of the mess I created for myself.
Recently I came across a very interesting thought that really made me smile and feel good, It read: "A child asked God: If everything is already written in out destiny, then why pray? God smiled and said: May be in few places I have written "As you Wish"!!!
Dont know why but I actually thought God sent me this signal to continue having faith in Him and Believe in myself.
Also when I was starting to feel good (may be for a certain time), I stumbled upon yet another powerful phrase.
FEAR has 2 meanings:
Forget Everything And Run OR
Face Everything And Rise
Choice is yours.!!!!
And again it again seemed like a straight dialogue from the Super Power to finally let me decide how I wanted to conquer on my Fear.
Hence today I concluded and have come to a decision to not let minor things affect me, everythings going to change so the happiness is going to turn sour which will also change to delight again...how you plan and keep pace defines it all..
I think I got the answer straight from All-mighty on the question that bothered me - Why plan if its destined to happen. The answer is Why fear and loose confidence when you believe in yourself and have faith in Him :-)
I have recently changed my profile to Marketing Communications since June 12. Although it was my dream job and I was extremely happy when I heard it was offered to me, of late I dont feel the same.
I still remember the day I heard about what was to be offered to me through a colleague, I actually jumped on my toes. Also when I had got a call from the Head asking for a meeting, the interview slot, the confirmation call - I remember it all so well. I felt like I just conquered the world. I also distinctively remember discussing my entire growth plan with my husband and I even patted myself for being pretty good on my track to progress.
However as the human nature is insatiable, once this wish was fulfilled, another wish was my mind in a jiffy.
I have somehow always planned ahead in life. I visualise how I want my life to go, what brings me joy, how can I plan my work and then the most important which are the weekend attached holidays which I can combine and go for yet another fantastic destination. Somehow so far I have been successful in striking a good balance between work and life. People who know me well have seen me happy, cheerful, bubbly kinds, of course bearing some days when am in terrible mood and hence quiet.
However so far I somehow have stopped feeling good about myself. When am trying and analysing the situation, strangely I dont know the answer. I have been doing well in terms of my personal and professional journey. Infact on professional front, to my surprise I was also adjudged Best Marketer for Q3. Still at that very moment, I was extremely extremely happy but soon the thrill died down.
Somehow after deep thought I realised that the new wishes that I had set for were causing the trouble. Things were not going the way they should have as per my plan. But another reason was also I was letting Others (People who even didnt matter to me) define my happiness.
I poured my heart out to my husband, my close friends, my well-wishers and surprisingly all advised me the same thing, "Things dont always go as per your plan, learn to have patience. Think positive, Have faith, Believe in yourself."
Again being the individual I am, I cheer up for the moment but again the dark clouds of negative thoughts encircled and endangered my happiness.
Its been quite a long time now that am feeling lost and helpless and a question often comes to my mind. Why am I planning for every small achievement / phase of my life. Why am I not like others who kind of live for the day, enjoy every moment and face another day as it comes?
Am not illogical to not understand, today's life is full of stress and whether you will exist or not tomorrow is also not guaranteed so live life kingsize. However even after I know this why am I being kiddish and sticking to that one wish which has taken command on my life and toll on my happiness.
However amongst all this mental chatter, as I have been always saying am a special child of God. He keeps sending some signals and his angels in the forms of my family members, close friends and well wishers. They keep cheering me, joking and trying their best to pull me out of the mess I created for myself.
Recently I came across a very interesting thought that really made me smile and feel good, It read: "A child asked God: If everything is already written in out destiny, then why pray? God smiled and said: May be in few places I have written "As you Wish"!!!
Dont know why but I actually thought God sent me this signal to continue having faith in Him and Believe in myself.
Also when I was starting to feel good (may be for a certain time), I stumbled upon yet another powerful phrase.
FEAR has 2 meanings:
Forget Everything And Run OR
Face Everything And Rise
Choice is yours.!!!!
And again it again seemed like a straight dialogue from the Super Power to finally let me decide how I wanted to conquer on my Fear.
Hence today I concluded and have come to a decision to not let minor things affect me, everythings going to change so the happiness is going to turn sour which will also change to delight again...how you plan and keep pace defines it all..
I think I got the answer straight from All-mighty on the question that bothered me - Why plan if its destined to happen. The answer is Why fear and loose confidence when you believe in yourself and have faith in Him :-)
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